So I've got 11 days to go. It's been 4 days since I had a cigarette and as I look to my right at all of my worldly possessions sitting in my mother's dining room, and I realize I can only bring what will fit in the back of a full-sized rental car, I really want a fucking cigarette. I think I'm pretty much over this god damn flu. I've got this occasional hacking rattle coming up from my chest and out of my throat on occasion, but the fever, sweats, chills, and aches seem to have gone away.As much as I don't really wanna go to work for the rest of the week, there is actually a part of me that does. What do I have to loose. If I screw up at something, the worst they can do is ask me to leave. And I do remember times at that job I did actually enjoy. I just wish that I could do a better job of explaining my illness and make people understand that it is not completely my fault. Sometimes, I'm just going to get sick. I think I'm about to send out a mass e-mail to friends and family and release this onto the public, or at least the parts of the public that know me. So get ready folks, the gloves have come off and if you are choosing to read this, you are not allowed to get offended by my sharing of the things that I want to say. If you think my words might embarass or ashame you stop reading, or at least remember you have been warned.
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4 comments:
NO! you don't need cigarettes. And really the only thing you need is a macbook pro, all the extra stuff is crap!
I think you may be right Marc. My hacking cough is so bad at this point that I may stop breathing all together if I have one. And yes, a macbook pro would be a nice alternative to cigarettes.
I don't know if this will help or not but when I quit smoking ten years ago, I found it helpful to run.
I kind of helped me fight the cravings, but it's a bitch to keep up. The main thing is to not give up. Even if you fail.
OK, this is my first blog. I almost cried when you started that whole 11 day stuff. Glad you are feeling better because you have to get all this junk out of my dining room before you leave.
You really don't need a cigarette! I am afraid you might cough up a lung if you do smoke. Besides, just go to the dining room and inhale deeply, you'll feel like you smoked. Ha! Wow, now I have all sorts of ways to keep up with you in Calf....telephone, email and a blog...how about instant messaging? Time for bed....please put the horse out one more time before you go to bed. Think I can teach Baxter to blog??? Love ya, MOM
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